I think something not often talked about with chronic illness/pain is the sense of dread/doom. Like I’m not talking anxiety, although it is similar.
It’s when there is something so wrong with your body that your brain goes “this isn’t right” “oh I already know that” “wait this really isn’t right” “shush I know that” over and over again and you’re just left with this sense that something is wrong.
Not to mention how hard it is to figure out what’s a gut feeling/intuition/warning bells or whats a flare or bad moment. If I dig down and my deepest feelings are pain/discomfort, what do I trust? A pain-addled brain?


