Hi! I appreciate your concern and the intention behind this message, but it didn’t make me feel great.
(This ask is in response to something I mentioned earlier, that one of the things that makes me happy today was ginger tea and blueberries for breakfast)
If you’ve been following my blog for a while (or even read my bio) you’d know that I have a chronic illness. This chronic illness also makes me prone to infections. One of them is eating away at my stomach lining which is all sorts of no fun. I was up most of the night with bad stomach pain and woke up nauseous and bloated. Ginger tea and blueberries both help with digestion and were things I could get down this morning. I have been slowly eating foods that are both mellow on the stomach and promote gut health all day. This is an extremely hard line for me to walk because my stomach has issues all on it’s own and food often makes it worse. I also am recovering from an ED (have been “clean” for a couple of years) and lose weight frequently and it’s a constant battle for me to stay at a healthy weight. It’s a constant question of whether or not I force myself to eat to stay healthy, or eat minimally to keep my body at minimal symptoms which is a really shitty thing when you are also recovering from an ED. I am truly sorry if I in any way romanticized eating minimal amounts of food, that was not my intention at all.
Also I am not angry with you at all, this is just a hard line that I walk and I’ve been thinking about it a lot recently as this infection has been rearing it’s head again. I really do understand where you were coming from ❤
I handle this balance pretty well and I’m not really looking for sympathy. I do feel it’s important to share my experiences though because I know I’m not the only one and I want people out there to feel less alone! So thanks for giving me the chance to talk about it 🙂